Cognitive Levees

It’s been a whirlwind of events, days, emotions, and so on. I’m here at J&B Coffee house to get out of the house and divulge in some writing, reading, and advancing.

Last week was a slow week in regards to training and this week is proving to be the same. The big problem there is when bills seemingly all come due around the same time. Looks like I need to rearrange when some of these bills a paid!

From an emotional standpoint, I feel exhausted. It feels like I’m on the brink of a panic attack , but I push it off with exercise, diet, or sheer will. Those cognitive levees will either hold or break. My past two days in the gym have been absolute trash and I’m hoping to bounce back tomorrow or just scratch this whole week off and rest. I’m leaning towards the week off and just focus on the business side of things, but after last weeks biometric data news, I feel I would be cheating myself of some advances in my health and overall fitness.

Navigating the sales aspect of this job and putting yourself out there is indeed the toughest part of this career. While my speech last night with the Texas Tech Panhellenic group proved to be a new high in regards to putting myself out there, having those nights just once a week won’t cut it. I need more and from the signs I got last night, those nights could be coming.

In a change of pace from my normal routine, I actually said a prayer this afternoon. If you truly know me, I’m not one to be open with my spirituality much less actually saying a prayer. I can’t even remember the last time I did something like that. But earlier this afternoon, it felt needed. Did it make me feel any better?

No.

But I did it regardless. And what will come will come.

-James

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