James Say Relax

I wrestle with the concept of relaxing.

All day, I’ve only stayed in a idle position for no more than five minutes. Afterwards, I have forced myself to do something productive or towards something bigger.

My bank account, laundry, stories, personal training, dogs, and other things have come into play today or things I’ve put time into.

But I’ve been trying to convince myself to just sit down and enjoy my own company. Meaning, sit down and write or sit down and just read some damn words.

At this exact juncture, I’m truly relaxed without a care in the world.

And it’s sort of nice ( :



Out of the Valley and Into in the…

I’ve been revisiting the idea of “time being a commodity” for the past several weeks. Unlike most people on social media these days, I don’t do a full blown announcement when it comes to a hiatus or taking a break-I just do it.

No need for the announcements, but just a simple action.

March was what it was. It was a slow month full of a variety of decisions, thoughts, emotions, and reactions to what life and the universe handed me. It was tough-ok, very tough-at times to navigate these waters I’ve chosen to tread through, but continued on I have done.

I wasn’t the one in my circle of family & friends to be going through March like that. In some ways, it almost felt contagious in sharing stress, anxiety, and the small hint of depression that can result from it. Slowly but surely we all ventured up from our own individual valley and made our way back to the top of the land. But it’s out of the valley and into the…well…let’s see out that plays out.


Lab Rat

Legend has it that many years ago, my parents would take me to Texas Tech when I was very small child and watch me play in the grass near the dorms and tell me “You’re going to go here one day, mijo.”

Well they weren’t wrong.

Every time I step foot on Texas Tech University, it’s like stepping inside a very significant piece of my heart & soul. It’s almost emotional for me in the sense that I becoming engulfed in a myriad of memories. Yet, I also become inspired when I’m on campus. Inspired by the goals I achieved, but driven to go out and do more. That’s Texas Tech for me.

I ventured there this morning to take part in a scientific study I volunteered to be a part of within the department of kinesiology and sports management. Being in a scientific laboratory that wasn’t forensics related was a change of pace for yours truly. It’s certainly been a while. A long while.

It wasn’t like the Ivan Drago montage scene in Rocky IV, but it was the closest I’ve been to at that point. I was surrounded by thousands of dollars worth of equipment that measured body composition. I’ll put it it like this-with the amount of testing I got done today, I EASILY would have spent over a thousand dollars to get done. Easily.

But it was free. All because I volunteered. As I said in the latest episode of the Cerebral Fit Podcast (Link on the homepage), but there is a plethora of studies out there who could use your help. Look into it! I am very much a scientist. I love research. I love case studies and so on.

The results I got from the testing correlated very much with the numbers I got from Complete Nutrition last week. Needless to say-my diet and fitness regime have been paying off. Just a matter of what else I can do to see how far I can go and will go.

It takes work, energy, and a will to keep going instead of backwards to get these kind of numbers supporting the strategy I put inside the gym and kitchen. The same will go for you. I promise.

Cognitive Levees

It’s been a whirlwind of events, days, emotions, and so on. I’m here at J&B Coffee house to get out of the house and divulge in some writing, reading, and advancing.

Last week was a slow week in regards to training and this week is proving to be the same. The big problem there is when bills seemingly all come due around the same time. Looks like I need to rearrange when some of these bills a paid!

From an emotional standpoint, I feel exhausted. It feels like I’m on the brink of a panic attack , but I push it off with exercise, diet, or sheer will. Those cognitive levees will either hold or break. My past two days in the gym have been absolute trash and I’m hoping to bounce back tomorrow or just scratch this whole week off and rest. I’m leaning towards the week off and just focus on the business side of things, but after last weeks biometric data news, I feel I would be cheating myself of some advances in my health and overall fitness.

Navigating the sales aspect of this job and putting yourself out there is indeed the toughest part of this career. While my speech last night with the Texas Tech Panhellenic group proved to be a new high in regards to putting myself out there, having those nights just once a week won’t cut it. I need more and from the signs I got last night, those nights could be coming.

In a change of pace from my normal routine, I actually said a prayer this afternoon. If you truly know me, I’m not one to be open with my spirituality much less actually saying a prayer. I can’t even remember the last time I did something like that. But earlier this afternoon, it felt needed. Did it make me feel any better?


But I did it regardless. And what will come will come.


The Inception of a Goal

I’m not sure if I’m an outlier in this regard, but did anybody else read newspaper editorials in the Sunday newspaper as a kid? Anybody?

I suppose those mornings back in the 1990s when I would read the editorials of the then editor of the Hobbs News Sun, Manny Marquez, did in fact make an impression on me and my future writing style. From my elementary school newspaper, being a high school sports editor, MySpace & Facebook posts, and now this…this all seems as it were inveitable. Perhaps destined in some regards.

I’m more comfortable going more at a pace that truly reflects my thought process through the week. Don’t get me wrong-there will come a point again when I publish more posts in the week, but it won’t be this week. Or maybe it will? Time always tells.

On an upcoming episode of the Cerebral Fit Podcast (Link on the homepage), I’m going to discuss my experiences with business networking in the professional world and how I’ve changed from shunning it to embracing it. Should be a fun episode to talk about it.

I honestly was never the best at networking during my Homeland days, but in the fitness industry, I find it to be a breathe of fresh air. I’ll explain why.

The beginning stages of my Spring cleaning started as of this morning. I got a good amount clothes out of my closet and out of life. Most of it being old workout clothes I’ve had for five years or more. They lasted, but it was time to part with them.

More of the clean up will continue with my refrigerators and cupboards being next on the list to do. What things do you plan to do for Spring Clean Up?

Remember to check out these following podcasts: Cerebral Fit, Ramblings of Mad Men, Sneaky Bandz, and Collar & Elbow Wrestling Podcast. Each of these podcasts are powered through the Anchor FM and available on my most podcast platforms.

Ideas are born everyday. One was born within my mind today. Probably the most tangible and grand idea I’ve ever had.


What Do You Bring to the Day?

This is truly one of the cold weather days where I truly want to stay in & do “nothing”. By “nothing”, I mean blog, podcast, make flyers, and advance the Cerebral Fit name.

At that same time, it’s also paramount to collaborate with others who are working towards similar goals as you: Sneaky Bandz and Collar & Elbow Wrestling Podcast are two other podcasts (available on the Anchor FM app & other podcast platforms) out there doing their respective things. Give them a listen and show your support! I’d be remiss if I forgot about the Ramblings of Mad Men Podcast as well. Those three podcasts are the best Texas based podcasts you aren’t listening to. Unless you are a well known figure with an already established fan base, getting your podcast known to the masses is a daunting task. But that’s apart of the fun, isn’t it? The challenge of it all.

It’s only Tuesday, but so far this week I’ve noticed significant gains with all of my clients. From stamina increase, weight loss, speed, and strength, progress has been made and this is an amazing thing to behold. As I have stated on my podcast, the Cerebral Fit Podcast, there is no magic pill to fitness and health: it takes work. Lots of work. It’s cliche & a tiring comment to mention but I cannot stress that enough.

I have some exciting and different engagements coming to fruition later on this week. Public speaking hasn’t exactly been my strongest character sheet trait, but it will certainly be put the test. For an introvert, I’ve certainly had my moments of being able to publicly speak with ease. Shocking I know. It’s there though. Regardless of how this goes, it’s going to be good to get the practice in. As one trainer told me last year, you practically have to “whore” yourself out there to get clients. Let’s hope it doesn’t get to THAT point. Then again…

I still don’t miss that government life. Not at all.

This is the part where I come up with a witty conclusion of some sorts to finish this blog post up. I keep staring outside my window though and looking at the cold overcast sky above me. The cars coming and going on the Loop and the birds walking on the top of my fence. It’s oddly peaceful. With this peaceful time comes with the opportunity to reflect back and also look towards what’s ahead. I’ve been heavily pondering about each day and what I can bring to the day rather than what it brings to me. It makes for more of a challenging adventure.

Seeing Red

The best changes can be of the smallest designs.

Not sure if that has been said before, but that’s what this week has brought to me.

I’m sitting here at one of my favorite bars in Lubbock, Nicks Sports-bar, enjoining my wine and reading a good book. Correction: great book.

This week was busy enough, but not enough to make me feel truly at ease. I like being busy & working towards my goal(s). My morning and afternoon were filled with clients and my personal workout, but the rest of the day has been solid. This wine was much deserved.

I love my career and the work it makes me do. It’s incredibly worth it.

I will say the most interesting aspects of this week have been regarding character development: mine.

I’ve been letting go of unnecessary regrets, anger, and emotions that have anchored me for too long. We all have them so quit fooling yourself. But the interesting part about all of this is the direction it’s taking me. The unexpected, yet enticing allure of what I see and feel.

Oh, what a feeling.